Skip to 0 minutes and 19 secondsIRENE (VOICEOVER): Sometimes I feel like I may just vanish.

Skip to 0 minutes and 25 secondsSometimes the hands in front of me tremor. But they're not my hands I don't think. They're the hands of someone a lot older. It's not me. I don't always see myself in the mirror. That's not me either. It can't be. I try to remember everything all at once, but it's too much and instead nothing comes. I can recognise that tired tone in their voices. It makes me afraid that they're fed up and angry with me. I'm terrified that they'll leave me, and when they do--

Skip to 1 minute and 15 secondsELAINE: Mum.

Skip to 1 minute and 16 secondsIRENE (VOICEOVER): --I'll vanish completely.

Skip to 1 minute and 18 secondsELAINE: Mum. Mum. Mum. Mum. Mum. She's fallen

Skip to 1 minute and 26 secondsTIMOTHY: Irene. Irene, I need in there.

Skip to 1 minute and 29 secondsELAINE: Don't bang. Her head's the other side of the door.

Skip to 1 minute and 31 secondsTIMOTHY: I'm bursting. You know I've always got to pee as soon as I get up.

Skip to 1 minute and 35 secondsELAINE: She could have banged her head badly, Tim.

Skip to 1 minute and 37 secondsTIMOTHY: Oh, I'll have to pee in the garden.

Skip to 1 minute and 39 secondsELAINE: Call Gerry, will you? Mum. Mum, can you hear me? Move away from the door. Mum.

Skip to 1 minute and 47 secondsTIMOTHY: What do you want me to do? Kick the door in?

Skip to 1 minute and 50 secondsELAINE: Anything. Pleas, Tim. Anything, please.

Skip to 1 minute and 53 secondsTIMOTHY: Like what?

Skip to 1 minute and 55 secondsELAINE: Anything apart from just being useless.

Skip to 1 minute and 57 secondsTIMOTHY: I honestly don't know what to do.

Skip to 1 minute and 59 secondsELAINE: Did you call Gerry?

Skip to 2 minutes and 0 secondsTIMOTHY: Yes.

Skip to 2 minutes and 1 secondELAINE: Well, that's something at least.

Skip to 2 minutes and 7 secondsROSEMARY: None of us want to go to work, Heather. That's what we get paid for. And I really need to get in there because, as much as I can't be bothered, I really do need to get to my job.

Skip to 2 minutes and 18 secondsHEATHER: (QUIETLY) I don't care.

Skip to 2 minutes and 24 secondsGERRY: Mum. Mum, you can get up now. It's me. Mum, it's Gerry.

Skip to 2 minutes and 30 secondsTIMOTHY: She's not conscious. Is she conscious do you think?

Skip to 2 minutes and 34 secondsGERRY: No, I don't think she's conscious.

Skip to 2 minutes and 39 secondsMum, are you hurt? Can you hear me?

Skip to 2 minutes and 44 secondsELAINE: She could be bleeding to death.

Skip to 2 minutes and 47 secondsGERRY: The window. I can get in through the window.

Skip to 2 minutes and 50 secondsELAINE: It's a skylight, and it's high up. And it's small.

Skip to 2 minutes and 54 secondsGERRY: I have been losing a lot of weight, I'll have you know. The running.

Skip to 2 minutes and 58 secondsELAINE: Might not be open.

Skip to 3 minutes and 0 secondsTIMOTHY: I can give you a leg up.

Skip to 3 minutes and 1 secondCHARLOTTE: I've got to see this.

Skip to 3 minutes and 3 secondsELAINE: You're up.

Skip to 3 minutes and 4 secondsCHARLOTTE: How am I supposed to sleep with all this racket going on?

Skip to 3 minutes and 7 secondsGERRY: Your Gran is stuck on the other side of this door.

Skip to 3 minutes and 9 secondsCHARLOTTE: Really? Again?

Skip to 3 minutes and 11 secondsGUY: Can I get in the bathroom?

Skip to 3 minutes and 12 secondsGERRY: No.

Skip to 3 minutes and 13 secondsELAINE: You're here too, are you?

Skip to 3 minutes and 15 secondsGUY: Stayed over.

Skip to 3 minutes and 17 secondsCHARLOTTE: Gran's hogging the bathroom.

Skip to 3 minutes and 19 secondsGUY: Do you want me to kick the door in?

Skip to 3 minutes and 21 secondsELAINE: No. There's got to be a better way.

Skip to 3 minutes and 26 secondsGERRY: Keep us steady. Keep-- keep us steady.

Skip to 3 minutes and 32 secondsNo, I can't see. Can't see her. Mum.

Skip to 3 minutes and 40 secondsIRENE: Gerald, get down from there at once you stupid boy!

Skip to 3 minutes and 47 seconds[CRASHING]

Skip to 3 minutes and 50 secondsGERRY: Has this happened before? How many times?

Skip to 3 minutes and 54 secondsELAINE: None.

Skip to 3 minutes and 54 secondsCHARLOTTE: Mum.

Skip to 3 minutes and 55 secondsELAINE: Not so you couldn't get the door open.

Skip to 3 minutes and 57 secondsCHARLOTTE: Mum, yes it has.

Skip to 3 minutes and 58 secondsELAINE: Yes, well-- but she woke up early, and she hadn't hurt herself.

Skip to 4 minutes and 2 secondsGERRY: Why am I not being told about this? I'm only three miles down the road.

Skip to 4 minutes and 6 secondsELAINE: I'm dealing with it, Gerry. I can't keep calling you every five minutes of the day.

Skip to 4 minutes and 11 secondsGERRY: Every five minutes now, is it?

Skip to 4 minutes and 13 secondsCHARLOTTE: Yeah.

Skip to 4 minutes and 14 secondsELAINE: No!

Skip to 4 minutes and 14 secondsGUY: Well, it's every day at least. Like, it's every day when I'm here.

Skip to 4 minutes and 17 secondsELAINE: Mind your own business, Guy. You're not family.

Skip to 4 minutes and 20 secondsCHARLOTTE: Don't speak to him like that.

Skip to 4 minutes and 21 secondsTIMOTHY: Charlotte, don't start on your mother.

Skip to 4 minutes and 23 secondsCHARLOTTE: You're not family either. Well, only recently, but not proper family.

Skip to 4 minutes and 27 secondsTIMOTHY: I think you'll find it's usually me who tracks her down on the street when you leave the door open when you come home late.

Skip to 4 minutes and 32 secondsGUY: Oi!

Skip to 4 minutes and 33 secondsIRENE: I am here.

Skip to 4 minutes and 34 secondsTIMOTHY: Or maybe it's you that leaves the door open, Guy.

Skip to 4 minutes and 38 secondsGERRY: How long has she been wandering off?

Skip to 4 minutes and 40 secondsIRENE: I am here, you know.

Skip to 4 minutes and 41 secondsELAINE: Who knows who leaves the door unlocked?

Skip to 4 minutes and 44 secondsGUY: Yeah, and it's not me because I don't have a key.

Skip to 4 minutes and 48 secondsGERRY: Can anyone here tell me how long she has been wandering off for?

Skip to 4 minutes and 54 secondsELAINE: She's not in your house, she's with me every day making messes and needing and taking to hospital.

Skip to 5 minutes and 3 secondsGERRY: My house is not big enough for her.

Skip to 5 minutes and 5 secondsTIMOTHY: You downsized at a convenient point, Gerry.

Skip to 5 minutes and 8 secondsGERRY: That's none of your business, Tim. What about your place? Aye, you've got your feet well under the table here, haven't you?

Skip to 5 minutes and 16 secondsELAINE: You be careful what you say, Gerry.

Skip to 5 minutes and 18 secondsCHARLOTTE: He has a study in his house. What are you studying, Uncle Gerry, astrophysics?

Skip to 5 minutes and 22 secondsGERRY: Yeah well, look-- no. We're taking in a foreign student. All right? The uni pays for that.

Skip to 5 minutes and 27 secondsIRENE: Please stop.

Skip to 5 minutes and 28 secondsGERRY: How long's that been? Two years? Three years? Oh, that's it. That really is the limit!

Skip to 5 minutes and 35 secondsIRENE: Stop it! Stop it all of you!

Skip to 5 minutes and 37 secondsELAINE: Mum!

Skip to 5 minutes and 38 secondsIRENE: I know I'm not wanted.

Skip to 5 minutes and 45 secondsGUY: Ah, it's OK, Nan. Here, have a chip. [CHATTER]

Skip to 5 minutes and 50 secondsCHLOE: If I get the care home, I'm walking. I don't care.

Skip to 5 minutes and 54 secondsHEATHER: I did it once already. So?

Skip to 5 minutes and 56 secondsCHLOE: And how bad was it?

Skip to 5 minutes and 58 secondsHEATHER: Not bad, just boring. There's literally nothing to do there.

Skip to 6 minutes and 5 secondsLUCY: It's a complete waste of time.

Skip to 6 minutes and 7 secondsHEATHER: You can't even change the TV channel to anything good.

Skip to 6 minutes and 11 secondsCHLOE: A month in there, it will feel like a year.

Skip to 6 minutes and 13 secondsLUCY: Geriatrics. There's literally nothing to learn.

Skip to 6 minutes and 16 secondsCHLOE: If you go back there, Heather, you'll never catch us up. You'll qualify for nothing when you leave.

Skip to 6 minutes and 21 secondsHEATHER: Stop it. Would you just come on?

Skip to 6 minutes and 24 secondsELAINE: You want a sandwich?

Skip to 6 minutes and 26 secondsGERRY: No, no, no. Not allowed to on this diet. No carbs.

Skip to 6 minutes and 30 secondsELAINE: Oh, you can have a sandwich. What about half a sandwich?

Skip to 6 minutes and 32 secondsGERRY: That's still a sandwich, only smaller.

Skip to 6 minutes and 35 secondsELAINE: Oh, you're just like Mum. She doesn't eat anything either. I've got to make her everything now. And if she does take it upon herself to make something, she makes such a mess.

Skip to 6 minutes and 44 secondsGERRY: Aye, she was always feeding me. That's what's led to my issues.

Skip to 6 minutes and 48 secondsELAINE: What issues? And don't talk about her like she's dead.

Skip to 6 minutes and 52 secondsGERRY: You know what I meant. When I was a youngster, she was always giving me sandwiches. Oh, and the biscuits mind.

Skip to 6 minutes and 58 secondsELAINE: When people came round, lots and lots of plates of biscuits.

Skip to 7 minutes and 2 secondsGERRY: And the guests never ate them, so they were always given to us. Ah, the good ones as well.

Skip to 7 minutes and 6 secondsELAINE: Dad never eat them.

Skip to 7 minutes and 8 secondsGERRY: I know. Why was that?

Skip to 7 minutes and 10 secondsELAINE: Because he only like bourbons and Mum never bought bourbons.

Skip to 7 minutes and 13 secondsGERRY: What, on purpose?

Skip to 7 minutes and 14 secondsELAINE: Of course on purpose. [LAUGHTER]

Skip to 7 minutes and 18 secondsGERRY: So how's work? Busy?

Skip to 7 minutes and 21 secondsELAINE: You know I've had to drop hours.

Skip to 7 minutes and 22 secondsGERRY: No.

Skip to 7 minutes and 24 secondsELAINE: When I'm not here at home, that's when things start to go wrong, and I don't mean things like leaving the freezer door open. That's only a wet kitchen floor and ruined chips.

Skip to 7 minutes and 35 secondsGERRY: Oh Elaine.

Skip to 7 minutes and 38 secondsELAINE: I don't know when I come home from work and I find her crying because she's scared. She's scared because I don't come home. And I don't even know how long she's been on her own or how long she's been upset. She can't be left on her own.

Skip to 7 minutes and 53 secondsGERRY: Well what about Timothy?

Skip to 7 minutes and 54 secondsELAINE: He has to work too.

Skip to 7 minutes and 56 secondsGERRY: Yeah, but what I mean is, can he not work and you stay here and look after her?

Skip to 8 minutes and 2 secondsELAINE: Tim's struggling just now. He's not getting the hours he used to, Gerry. Please don't say anything about it, but he's worried. And I get worried with him, and then I go at my work and I can't keep my mind on my work because I'm thinking they're going to fire me. And then I come home and make the dinner, and I can't find the forks because she's hidden them all. I'm telling you, Gerry, I've had enough. I've really had enough. I mean, my heart's broken with it. I'm just broken.

Skip to 8 minutes and 32 secondsGERRY: Why did she hide the forks?

Skip to 8 minutes and 35 secondsMARTIN: These are your placements. Please make a note of the times and locations. That's all for this week. Thank you.

Skip to 8 minutes and 45 secondsHEATHER: Not again. I can't do this again.

Skip to 8 minutes and 48 secondsLUCY: Why have I got it? This is crap. Of course you're safe Chloe, cow.

Skip to 8 minutes and 54 secondsCHLOE: Mr. Martin recognises my superior potential. Not like you two losers.

Skip to 8 minutes and 59 secondsLUCY: Sir--

Skip to 9 minutes and 0 secondsMARTIN: Martin. Lucy please, we're not in school.

Skip to 9 minutes and 3 secondsLUCY: I've been in the old folks home, Mr. Martin.

Skip to 9 minutes and 7 secondsMARTIN: I know, I know. Look, I don't find nursing home placements beneficial to anybody, but this is the way things are set up, so--

Skip to 9 minutes and 15 secondsLUCY: Mr. Martin--

Skip to 9 minutes and 17 secondsMARTIN: There may be a place in Surgical, at a push. I think you can offer more than a care home allows, so leave it with me, OK?

Skip to 9 minutes and 26 secondsLUCY: Thanks, Mr. Martin.

Skip to 9 minutes and 29 secondsCHLOE: How'd you pull that off?

Skip to 9 minutes and 31 secondsLUCY: Who cares?

Skip to 9 minutes and 33 secondsHEATHER: How did this happen to me? How?

Episode One

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